Nothing I Hold Onto16th May 2018
I lean not on my understanding My life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven
I give it all to you God,
trusting that you'll make something beautiful out of me
When I heard this song for the very first time, I was immediately drawn to the simplicity of its lyrics. But it wasn’t until a few weeks later, when I experienced a setback and challenge in serving that the lyrics of this song truly took a hold of me. At the very beginning of preparing for youth rally, our team was met with a challenge for one of the elements of the night. I remembered thinking that everything was going so well – we started the preparation early and everyone was so excited to serve. But when challenges arise, I started doubting, to the point that I even began to doubt whether God had made a mistake in calling me to become a leader as I felt so unqualified and incapable.
I didn’t know why at that time, but I decided to listen to this song, and its lyrics reminded me of a passage in the Bible:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6
As I was struggling to find a solution to the challenge that our team was facing, Proverbs 3:5-6 reminded me yet again that I can and should trust and surrender this challenge into God’s hands because our God is greater than any challenge we face. And the fact that I don’t have to lean on my own strength, my own understanding and myself because my life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven, the Creator of the universe, instead of fuelling my feeling of inadequacy, fills my heart with peace and empowers me to put my faith in God that He has a beautiful plan for me, and for you. And that God did not and will not make a mistake in placing us in whatever role we are in right now.
As you listen to this song, I pray that its lyrics will speak over your life and speak into whatever situation you are facing right now. If you are facing a mountain of difficulties that you can’t seem to climb over, I pray that this song will remind you again that we don’t need to hold onto our own understanding, but we can surrender it all to God, for He is always in control.
I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open There's nothing I hold onto