Live According to God23rd October 2017
We all have our comfort zone. Maybe it is when you hang out with friends at school, maybe it is playing computer games in your room, or maybe it is going to church every Friday night. For me, my comfort zone is definitely spending quality time with my friends and family while being able to enjoy my comfy bed at night.
Recently, I was forced to leave my comfort zone as my placement is at Gold Coast which meant travelling down from Brisbane everyday would be a burden for me. Therefore, I decided to rent an Airbnb there to shorten the commuting time to placement. To be honest, I was quite excited at the start because it was my first time living away from my family for such a long period of time. I thought I would get to enjoy the freedom and basically do whatever I wanted to do. However, as the time went on, I realized I’ve started missing my friends, family and pretty much everything I had in Brisbane.
Placement also wasn’t an easy task. Besides feeling physically tired every night from long hours of shift, I was hoping my performances could improve day by day so that I could find the confidences in what I do. However, things weren’t turning out as I had wished. I made mistakes all the time and constantly questioned myself what was I doing here. Did I choose the wrong career? The combination of placement’s struggles and living away from my comfort zone really made me feel isolated and frustrated.
However, I did not simply walk away from the challenges. I remembered one day I was extremely tired both mentally and physically. I walked from the staff area to patient-waiting area to call in a patient for treatment. Although it was nothing special as I had been doing this walk for like a thousand times, there was a voice in my head saying “Andy, do this for the patients, do this for God”. This voice somehow brought me a different perspective on this placement as well as living at Gold Coast. I realized all these things were God’s plans. He is using me to help and support the patients in need. Although I would have to step out of my comfort zone, losing family time and even my comfy bed, God is trying to use me and see how faithful I am to live according to His plan.
As Pastor Cheng shared the following bible verses at one of the Friday youths while I was doing my placement, I just thought it related to my recent experiences.
Peter said, "Behold, we have left our own homes and followed You." And He said to them, "Truly I say to you, there is no one who has left house or wife or brothers or parents or children, for the sake of the kingdom of God, who will not receive many times as much at this time and in the age to come, eternal life." - Luke 18:28-30 [NASB]
Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. "For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. - Matthew 16:24-25 [NASB]
Sometimes we must leave our precious things behind when we are following God. We might not feel comfortable at the start but we need to remain faithful to Him and remind ourselves that God has His plans. We also need to put our old life onto the cross so that our new life can be lived according to His will. If I chose to give up and turned to my family and friends in Brisbane, I might have missed the opportunity to help so many patients that God has prepared for me.
By the end of my first week placement, many patients remembered my name and showed me their gratitude because I made a positive impact in their lives. I feel touched and extremely thankful that God has given me this opportunity to make a change in patients’ future so they will have a better quality of life.
Instead of feeling isolated and frustrated with the placement and living at Gold Coast, I am loving and embracing this moment right now. So whatever you are struggling with now, always remember it is all God’s plans and we need to remain faithful so we can live according to His will.